<i gave you my heart but you broke it */> window.defaultStatus=" i give you my heart";
Tuesday, July 25, 2006


sometimes you wonder why missing someone or something on be so hard. especially when you are really yearning for that something. you are desperate for it, you would do anything for it, you can't seem to get it out of your mind. but on the otherhand, you don't want to get it, cus you know you won't be able to get it. then when you finally decide to give it up, you feel frustrated at yourself for being so weak, for not sustaining till the very end. but if its impossible, why still hold on to it? why make yourself miserable?
why? i really wonder.
its only at the most extreme situations when you finally realise you cannot give that something up. well, i haven't gone through that kind of situations. yet.
feeling moody and even sad these days.
gosh. i've gone from that hyper person to a more reserved and now i even think twice when i'm about to do something. i pause and think, sometimes even deeply.
improvement.
and i tend to put more thought into stuff now.
okay, that was repetitive.
i saw the sec 2s playing badminton in the hall yesterday. i was so saddened, i thought i was going to cry. why couldn't i have been born one year earlier or something? but i know there're lots of people i wouldn't want to leave if i was born one year earlier. all those friedns. impossible to leave. and i even made qiyue angry with me! sigh. just thinking about it makes me sad. some of their standards are...i don't know how to put it. but OH. seeing the big raffles word on the jersey makes me sad.
really sad.
and i mean sad.
i've never been this sad in a long time. except maybe a few times.
this is such an emotional post.
i shall stop.
ta.

gave my heart */ on 1:22:00 PM